Reflections

Experimenting with make-up!

2011-12-08T22:00:00.005+10:00

Can you tell I'm having fun? xD So that i don't waste make-up I did two different eyes...haha.

Now that I'm working I have to wear make-up everyday...which is sort of lame because it takes time putting it on and off. And plus i have mono-eyelids so everytime I put eyeshadow on it smudges everywhere at the crease!

But parts of it is fun. It's cool how you can blend colours and brighten parts of you face up. It always surprises me how much you can change one's look just with it on... For example, in one of the youtube videos I watched, this is the before and after look:

Surprising right?

Where I work (The Body Shop) the male sale assistants wear make-up too =P. But they look perfectly normal. I couldn't tell that they had and only found out when I asked them xD.

How has it been working there so far?

It's been alright. I was kinda bummed that they only gave me 2x3-hour shifts per week for two weeks when they said it would be around 25 hours/week. But next week I'll be getting 20 so I'm quite excited!

What do I do at work? Since it's just a christmas casual position they wanted me to specialise in gift wrapping. It sounds easy but it can get pretty stressful. In the group interview we had a gift wrapping relay. We spilt into two groups and had to wrap our present within 2 minutes, to then pass it on to the next person on your team. It was intense!

But Christmas time is worse because you have customers watching you wrap your present, and more customers in line waiting for their turn. I personally get more nervous when my manager is watching though.

I don't only using paper wrapping; I use wood wool, boxes, tins, plastic to hot-air the gifts (you have to be careful with this in case you pop the plastic...). Some of the tins they have there are octagonally-shaped, some are oval shaped. There are even triangular prisms...haha - so yes! There is a lot! It's not a simple job to gift wrap :D.

I'm going to be so pro at the end of this. Muahahaha

My QOTD =)

2011-10-05T22:32:00.001+10:00

"Isn't all of God's Word good for us, whether its first taste is bitter or sweet - a sensation which so often depends upon what else we have been chewing previously? It shouldn't be tampered with, or rejected, or grudgingly accepted. It should be willingly embraced as a gift of life from our loving Creator and Redeemer!" --> Peter Bolt

Blog awakening? xD

2011-09-05T23:23:00.001+10:00

I've just decided to blog once again, and apparently so has elaine =P

I hope you like the new look of my blog!

Chistianity

2009-07-19T19:29:00.005+10:00

I came across a problem with someone and I used it to explain the concept of sin. What I learnt on camp has also helped me understand this more. Basically when our relationships go wrong, whether it's between friends, family, work etc etc, there is guilt and shame, as well as hurt. Hurt for the people around you and oftentimes for yourself as well.

So whenever someone sins, even though it seems so minor and insignificant, there is always someone who suffers for it. It’s incredibly unfair that they have to be put through it, but someone has to. Cause, effect and response. In my case, I was the cause of the problem, the effect is our hurt and our changed relationship was the response. Fortunately, this person had the heart to endure the hurt I had caused, forgive and love me still.

Jesus does this for all the people in the world. To do this - to take every single person’s sin away, no matter how great or small can only be done by someone Godly. No mortal can have a heart so big, so pure, so loving and just. This is what it means when you hear words like – for God so loved the world that he sent his only Son Jesus to take our sins away. Even though we are imperfect and broken souls, because God our creator loves us so much and still wants to have a relationship with us, he has made it possible through Jesus. That’s why the way into Christianity is only through Jesus.

It sounds so simple that it’s ridiculous almost, - that to become a Christian the only thing you have to do is accept Jesus as your Lord and Saviour, and that’s it. For some of us, this act to accept and give your whole complete trust is hard (I know it was for me), but we shouldn't undermine it only because it is made easy for those who need it most.

For most people who are in great need of a redeemer out of fear or out of gain, this is very easy. But I believe that it’s made simple only because of His great love. He is willing to accept those who have no where else to go, who are easy to accept Him due to horrible situations or circumstances. When you think about third world countries, the people are in so bad a position that the only way they can live is to have God there with them. However, it’s because of his immense love that he can accept people like that - that he makes it easy for them to be with him in heaven. Now we, in no way deserve such godly love at all. This is why it’s only by His Grace that we are saved.

Lastly... about mocking unfaithful followers. How can a great religion be filled with so many of them? - Only because the God is loving enough to accept and forgive such unfaithfulness. So rather than judging our fellow Christians and criticizing them (something that we have no right to do - Romans 2), find the heart to help them be holy instead, for we are all sinners.

In conclusion!...(I never get to use this in essays but this is okay because it's a blog!!!) although it may be true that to be a Christian can be very easy, to live as a Christian is very difficult. How we live our Christian life will determine our riches in heaven, and we cannot judge this for ourselves or for anyone else, only God can. Personally I learnt for myself with a certainty that true forgiveness can only be done with love and that it results to a greater and more sustaining love. I know we all read this or hear about this a lot and I hope that we are loving enough for everyone to feel and experience this =).

Spread the love everyone =).

Man and Woman/Husband and Wife

2009-06-08T22:40:00.000+10:00

This entry is a follow up on what Josh posted up today…I think I might reiterate a few things too.

So, Jesus says that "at the beginning the Creator made them male and female" (Matthew 19:4). Therefore, Genesis should be what we should refer to first and foremost. From what I have read, it does say that woman is man's helper ("I will make a helper suitable for him" (Genesis 2:18)), but it infers that although they have separate roles they are equal in God's sight.

I found a quote from Matthew Henry that explains this really well. He says, “"Eve was not taken out of Adam's head to top him, neither out of his feet to be trampled by him, but out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected by him, and near his heart to be loved by him." (This has been taken out of Genesis 2:21-23)

In terms of their different roles, man should be the leader as mentioned in Ephesians 5:22-33. Genesis also illustrates this since God created man first. However, although woman was made to help and nourish man, it's important to realise that we complement each other. That woman is supposed to submit to their husbands is not "mindless, joyless submission, but active participation and response to loving leadership" (Joshua Harris). Nevertheless, I still think it's important for a wife to play an active part in the values of the husband's leadership, so that they both can agree on it and live by it. This way there is harmony in both parties, as well as a balance.

Today Josh clarified this part for me, saying:
“The male is made to lead, but to lead in a humble, christlike and servant hearted manner. Biblical male leadership isn't saying that the guy is like a dictator or he acts selfishly and is not Christlike, and when it says that women/wives submit to the men/husband, it is saying that on the terms that the man is obedient to Christ and is leading in that manner.
The fact is that, like you say, a lot of men are incapable of leading, and that is why people around the world are having ideas such as 'feminism' and women ordination (female pastors and elders) because men aren't stepping up, so women are taking their places, and reversing the God-given roles for men and women."

It makes more sense now, but my confusion still lies as to why the roles in leading a family have to be done by the husband and to which areas this extends to. I’m also still uncomfortable with the idea of inequality. Take the idea of male being the head of the house. I think that this is a result of tradition and society. Could Paul have written what he wrote simply because at the time, only men held the power?

A woman’s role was not to think and especially not to lead, which makes sense as they were less educated/not educated at all and inexperienced in these areas. Now this is different. Now we have more understanding in such matters, and are capable of fulfilling such roles. Because of this, it makes more sense that there is an equal say by both husband and wife. Both will have their strengths and weaknesses, and depending on this, wouldn’t it make sense that each will lead in their own area, as is needed/appropriate?

Maybe I’m taking this too seriously…I am trying to understand both sides of it though.

Gold Coast

2009-05-05T00:34:00.002+10:00

A weekend at the Gold Coast was actually quite pleasant. For once the family only fought with minimal yelling...But then again, mum and dad are pretty much separated now. Meh.
Heh, we went away to celebrate Mum's birthday but we didn't end up celebrating it properly at all. We didn't buy cake, or even have dinner together. We had lunch, but no one ate the noodles (usually everyone has to eat the noodles when it's someone's birthday...i think it symbolises long life or something). Mum said she felt tired, so she stayed at the hotel while everyone else went out. Later she hanged out with her friends.
I'm glad that she has people she can communicate with now. It's a healthy change for her, she's actually doing something more than just watching dramas on the computer, as most asian parents are doing now I've heard =(.

Later in the night Ray, Lynn and I went with her to her church's worship conference. We didn't like it. We all decided that they were almost giving false interpretations of what the bible says. It was more of what I found most christian leaders to be...they preached to what they think is right, and not really give any precise or definitive reasoning. But then i thought about it and maybe it's better for some people. Some people prefer thinking about it in more simple and upfront terms, more because they find it hard to understand it through analysis, and they need someone to spell it out for them. (but then there's that danger of following the leader, as opposed to following God...) Their method was very very direct that it almost seemed personal by the end of it. On the first night, by the end of it people were crying. This one girl was wailing for at least 15 minutes. Yes, wailing. It took ages to calm her down...she was still hysterical when i left. It felt really weird. The leaders were speaking out in tongues while firmly holding to someone's shoulders, and speaking very loudly saying something along the lines of "submit to jesus and you will be filled with the holy spirit!", and after a while the person would fall back, with others ready to catch them when they did. I don't know if it was divine touch or if it was just the result of fervent speech and face-to-face contact. To me it seemed like they were just speaking words that came to mind, as opposed to carefully and well thought-out teachings. But then again, who am i to judge something that i don't really know that well about?

Religion is confusing.

Ah, it's already 1:40am...I think I should probably sleep XD.
Ohhh, lastly, happy birthday Josh =). Oh wait, his birthday is on the 7th hey...oh well!

The party today was really nice. It was one of the few parties I've been to that didn't have that awkwardness around. It was nice seeing the host relaxed and having a good time at his party. Usually he/she is busy walking around and making sure everyone's happy and having a good time, while worrying about the overall plan for the day. Seeing Josh comfortable made me feel comfortable too, as a guest that is. Maybe that's the trick to hosting parties.

Work went pretty well too. I've discovered that teaching is a joy for me. I love the feeling of being able to pass on what i know, and of sharing my passion. To have my students absorb and adopt what i say makes me really touched. I guess it tells me that they're actively listening and that they trust me. I don't know, is this how all tutors and teachers feel? I want to guide them as best as I can. I don't think they know that this learning experience is new for me as it is for them XD.

Right, and now to end my day with sleep XD.

OISHII

2009-04-19T20:44:00.003+10:00

Yes! The food of today was quite delicious! Oishi Sushi is the best =D.
Church was good. The pastor talked about something really relevant today. He was explaining a cyclical pattern relevant to people/countries. I think it was like...

Bondage
Dependency Mission
Apathy Freedom/Liberty
something here.... Plenty?
Affluent?

Okay, so my memory is not so good...But yes! It's interesting to think that most of us actually do this...and although it looks so easy to just skip the other half of the circle, it really isn't. We are so human.

Katie has come with me to SDBC for the 3rd time now. I think she likes it!
And so far, we haven't been late! We figured out that if we leave at about 9 everything is all good =).

Overall Sundays = great people, great food + sleep

Restaurant

2008-12-24T20:07:00.003+10:00

I was having lunch at a cafe this arvo and prices were so ridiculous! How can a ceasar salad cost 22 dollars?!?

Anyway, so after you finish your meal, if the waitress/waiter says thankyou to you, would you reply with "thankyou" or "you're welcome"?

time

2008-09-18T21:42:00.003+10:00

I feel like i'm lost again. There's just so little time that everything i do feels like half-hearted effort. It's so hard though, because when i look back and think about what i've done, i know that this is the best i can do. Does that mean that i'm actually not trying hard enough?
I think about all the strong people out there, and i don't really understand how they do it. By the time i come home and help around it's 9 o'clock. And because it's already so late, so quickly, i can never find time to relax and i end up losing my temper. Some days are better than others though.

mid sems huh?

2008-09-04T23:40:00.002+10:00

It's mid-semester for us but it's already exam block for grade 12s. I guess it's really true when they say that time moves so much faster when you're older.
For those of you who actually read this, sorry for not posting! Here's what has happened the past few weeks..

Grandpa came to visit me! Er, *my family XP. It was so nice for him to come visit us, i love him so much XD. He is so wise and hm, i guess if there was such thing as a perfect grandpa he'd be it. Can you tell that i really admire him? =P
Ahh, i wish dad was be less tense though =(. This is something i don't get, why do people always think that by complaining, or showing-off, other people will sympathise with that person or think he/she is great or something, and as a result that person will be liked more? To me it's the opposite. If you put effort in doing something good, sometime there will be someone who notices and appreciates what you do, and when they do it'll be so much more meaningful. What do you think?

So anyway, yes, grandpa is le awesome. =D. I think...if it wasn't for him my mum's side of the family (family of 9 children!!!) wouldn't be so together. It's so amazing that people like him exist in the world, and give a positive effect (in the nicest way mind) to life and the people around them. And he doesn't really lead either...(not that leaders are bad). As in, he doesn't force his values on you... he just lives his life to what he thinks is right, and by interacting with him you find that you start sharing the same values? Eh, did that make sense? XD

I never really got to know him until a year or so ago, and I'm so glad that i did! Haha, when i visited him at that time it was just after he had a bad car accident. The doctor said that he wouldn't be able to walk properly anymore...but, he kept trying and now he's hiking on mountains XD. He actually has the energy for it too! =D. When we were at a sports oval, he decided to run with me, and so-he-did! My 80-year old grandpa ran with me around the oval XD. Haha, i'd be worried if it was anymore than that though, but yes, i thought that was totally cool.

He was only here for two weeks though =(. So um, just before he left i went on this jewelery spree for my cousins and aunties over there. I passed it on to him the night before he left, and he was all...can you teach me how to do this??? As in, he was serious about it! He thought my tools were so cool! Ah he's so cute XD. If you want to see what i've made...some of it is in my deviantart site =) --> shnoar@deviantart.com

That's another thing i've been doing recently! Designing and taking photos =). When i study and do my work..hm, i like it, science is fun. But when i take a break and do something arty i find myself realising how much i miss it...So i think to myself, is this what i want to do? But then again, i do it anyway? As in...i know that whatever path i take in life, music and art will always be with me. I can't make up my mind =(.

Wow i've already typed a lot XD. Well i can tell you the rest of it on another post =P. Sleep time for me!

Ahahaha i named the title mid sems but i didn't actually end up talking about it.

my new case!

2008-08-06T23:00:00.005+10:00

i just bought a new hard drive...and it looked so pretty and new that i made a new case for it XD.
here it is!!!
isn't it beautiful? =D
i wish i had thicker white thread though...and a working sewing machine XD

song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-04T00:39:00.005+10:00

i have a friend named josh! he's really nice!
today he played the song i requested!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111111111

azn guys with big hair

2008-08-02T20:24:00.005+10:00

Isn't it funny that nowadays a lot of guys are spending more time taking care of their hair? E.g. every morning when my brother wakes up, he spends 1 hour just doing his hair. Amazing really.

Haha, before he started doing all this i remember him telling me a story of when he went to the gym with his friends. Basically, after they all had their work out and shower, his friends were in front of the mirror, straightening their hair. (yes they actually brought their own straighteners to the gym!). XD.

Well, there's nothing wrong with it. I find it kinda cute that they do all this now. But sometimes it just looks quite silly. Today i was out with Lynn and we saw this guy who had nearly the same hairstyle as Cloud (er. some guy from kingdom hearts). I admit that it did look pretty cool, and he was kinda hot, but it was just so BIG. Small face + big hair? He wasn't that tall either so it makes it look so fake. Haha, it's like...i go up to him and ask, "Hey i like your hair! Where did you buy it from?" Ah. XD.

Dinner story continued [from day 1]

2008-07-31T21:17:00.003+10:00

[from Facebook]

"Calum wrote
at 8:31pm
hey sharon! thanks for the add. How are you!? You've probably realised I was the 'aussie' eating dinner at your apartment the other night :) Sorry for being so rude! Didn't realise you were talking to me.

Love Calum."

...lol.

Gah

2008-07-31T19:29:00.003+10:00

I felt sleepy so i thought i might take a nap. My idiotic brother lost his temper at mum, so mum decided to take it out on us (my sister and i). I pretended i was sleeping but i heard the whole lecture. Half an hour later my dad barges in the room and tells me to eat dinner. I sighed, woke up and made my way to dinner, to only get yelled at again by my mother throughout the meal.

WHY.

Gay, or not gay?

2008-07-31T14:03:00.001+10:00

Last week while I was having lunch with some friends I saw my brother and his friends pass by. (this is a super rare occurrence btw [that time was only the 3rd time in one whole semester and a bit]) Being the loving sister that I am, when I saw him I was overjoyed and instantly said hello to him.
He on the other hand, only glanced at me and continued on his way.
!!!!!
One of my friends who was sitting with me also knew my brother, and after witnessing my not-so-successful "hello" he says casually to him, "Hey Ray."
Ray (my brother) turned HIS HEAD AROUND and gave his sign of recognition. lol, the way i wrote (typed?) that sounds like he did some weird hand signal. BODY LANGUAGE. Basically he said hello.

And i thought to myself... my brother publicly jipped me.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As soon as i got home i challenged him as to why he ignored me like that. He claimed that he did in fact, say hello. Anyway, during our exchange of blows and insults he goes, "How come i never see you with hot guys". I reply with - "How come i only see you with guys?"

It's TRUE though, i have never seen him with any girls except when we were still in co-ed primary, and in all these years he's never had a girlfriend. (lol i make him sound so old). Haha, i talked about it to my sister and she, amused agrees with me.

No i do not think my brother is gay.

2008-07-31T00:18:00.003+10:00

phone call

2008-07-31T00:05:00.002+10:00

I was washing the dishes today and a friend of my mum called up. Just judging from the conversation i deduced that this friend's son impregnated some girl. So now lies the problem of the unborn child. Ahhh problems problems problems. Anyway, after the convo mum goes: Sharon when you're with a boy don't be together.
Interesting choice of words mum.

day 1

2008-07-30T22:13:00.000+10:00

My first blog!

I actually woke up EARLY today and got out of the house EARLY for my 8am lecture. But no! The bus had to be late. So there i was entering the room 20 minutes late, found that the nearest empty seat was in the 2nd row. Ah, and i was wearing my sister's bright pink jacket today too...baw XD

Hmm embarrassing moment no. 2...today at dinner my brother invited his friends over. One of them (Calumn) was someone i blocked on facebook because well i didn't know who he was XD. Anyway, we were having dinner and Calumn remarked on how nice the food is compared to what he has at home. I thought i'd be nice and have a conversation going so i asked him what he usually has at home and-he-ignored-me. Ahahha, bet it was payback for the blocking XD.
Nah, i don't think he heard me. My brother however, did. after a few seconds he started laughing at me and went "rejected!". His friends were like what? XD.

I have now decided that i don't like wednesdays.