Gold Coast

A weekend at the Gold Coast was actually quite pleasant. For once the family only fought with minimal yelling...But then again, mum and dad are pretty much separated now. Meh.
Heh, we went away to celebrate Mum's birthday but we didn't end up celebrating it properly at all. We didn't buy cake, or even have dinner together. We had lunch, but no one ate the noodles (usually everyone has to eat the noodles when it's someone's birthday...i think it symbolises long life or something). Mum said she felt tired, so she stayed at the hotel while everyone else went out. Later she hanged out with her friends.
I'm glad that she has people she can communicate with now. It's a healthy change for her, she's actually doing something more than just watching dramas on the computer, as most asian parents are doing now I've heard =(.

Later in the night Ray, Lynn and I went with her to her church's worship conference. We didn't like it. We all decided that they were almost giving false interpretations of what the bible says. It was more of what I found most christian leaders to be...they preached to what they think is right, and not really give any precise or definitive reasoning. But then i thought about it and maybe it's better for some people. Some people prefer thinking about it in more simple and upfront terms, more because they find it hard to understand it through analysis, and they need someone to spell it out for them. (but then there's that danger of following the leader, as opposed to following God...) Their method was very very direct that it almost seemed personal by the end of it. On the first night, by the end of it people were crying. This one girl was wailing for at least 15 minutes. Yes, wailing. It took ages to calm her down...she was still hysterical when i left. It felt really weird. The leaders were speaking out in tongues while firmly holding to someone's shoulders, and speaking very loudly saying something along the lines of "submit to jesus and you will be filled with the holy spirit!", and after a while the person would fall back, with others ready to catch them when they did. I don't know if it was divine touch or if it was just the result of fervent speech and face-to-face contact. To me it seemed like they were just speaking words that came to mind, as opposed to carefully and well thought-out teachings. But then again, who am i to judge something that i don't really know that well about?

Religion is confusing.

Ah, it's already 1:40am...I think I should probably sleep XD.
Ohhh, lastly, happy birthday Josh =). Oh wait, his birthday is on the 7th hey...oh well!

The party today was really nice. It was one of the few parties I've been to that didn't have that awkwardness around. It was nice seeing the host relaxed and having a good time at his party. Usually he/she is busy walking around and making sure everyone's happy and having a good time, while worrying about the overall plan for the day. Seeing Josh comfortable made me feel comfortable too, as a guest that is. Maybe that's the trick to hosting parties.

Work went pretty well too. I've discovered that teaching is a joy for me. I love the feeling of being able to pass on what i know, and of sharing my passion. To have my students absorb and adopt what i say makes me really touched. I guess it tells me that they're actively listening and that they trust me. I don't know, is this how all tutors and teachers feel? I want to guide them as best as I can. I don't think they know that this learning experience is new for me as it is for them XD.

Right, and now to end my day with sleep XD.

OISHII

Yes! The food of today was quite delicious! Oishi Sushi is the best =D.
Church was good. The pastor talked about something really relevant today. He was explaining a cyclical pattern relevant to people/countries. I think it was like...

Bondage
Dependency Mission
Apathy Freedom/Liberty
something here.... Plenty?
Affluent?

Okay, so my memory is not so good...But yes! It's interesting to think that most of us actually do this...and although it looks so easy to just skip the other half of the circle, it really isn't. We are so human.

Katie has come with me to SDBC for the 3rd time now. I think she likes it!
And so far, we haven't been late! We figured out that if we leave at about 9 everything is all good =).

Overall Sundays = great people, great food + sleep

Restaurant

I was having lunch at a cafe this arvo and prices were so ridiculous! How can a ceasar salad cost 22 dollars?!?

Anyway, so after you finish your meal, if the waitress/waiter says thankyou to you, would you reply with "thankyou" or "you're welcome"? 

time

I feel like i'm lost again. There's just so little time that everything i do feels like half-hearted effort. It's so hard though, because when i look back and think about what i've done, i know that this is the best i can do. Does that mean that i'm actually not trying hard enough?
I think about all the strong people out there, and i don't really understand how they do it. By the time i come home and help around it's 9 o'clock. And because it's already so late, so quickly, i can never find time to relax and i end up losing my temper. Some days are better than others though.

mid sems huh?

It's mid-semester for us but it's already exam block for grade 12s. I guess it's really true when they say that time moves so much faster when you're older.
For those of you who actually read this, sorry for not posting! Here's what has happened the past few weeks..

Grandpa came to visit me! Er, *my family XP. It was so nice for him to come visit us, i love him so much XD. He is so wise and hm, i guess if there was such thing as a perfect grandpa he'd be it. Can you tell that i really admire him? =P
Ahh, i wish dad was be less tense though =(. This is something i don't get, why do people always think that by complaining, or showing-off, other people will sympathise with that person or think he/she is great or something, and as a result that person will be liked more? To me it's the opposite. If you put effort in doing something good, sometime there will be someone who notices and appreciates what you do, and when they do it'll be so much more meaningful. What do you think?

So anyway, yes, grandpa is le awesome. =D. I think...if it wasn't for him my mum's side of the family (family of 9 children!!!) wouldn't be so together. It's so amazing that people like him exist in the world, and give a positive effect (in the nicest way mind) to life and the people around them. And he doesn't really lead either...(not that leaders are bad). As in, he doesn't force his values on you... he just lives his life to what he thinks is right, and by interacting with him you find that you start sharing the same values? Eh, did that make sense? XD

I never really got to know him until a year or so ago, and I'm so glad that i did! Haha, when i visited him at that time it was just after he had a bad car accident. The doctor said that he wouldn't be able to walk properly anymore...but, he kept trying and now he's hiking on mountains XD. He actually has the energy for it too! =D. When we were at a sports oval, he decided to run with me, and so-he-did! My 80-year old grandpa ran with me around the oval XD. Haha, i'd be worried if it was anymore than that though, but yes, i thought that was totally cool.

He was only here for two weeks though =(. So um, just before he left i went on this jewelery spree for my cousins and aunties over there. I passed it on to him the night before he left, and he was all...can you teach me how to do this??? As in, he was serious about it! He thought my tools were so cool! Ah he's so cute XD. If you want to see what i've made...some of it is in my deviantart site =) --> shnoar@deviantart.com

That's another thing i've been doing recently! Designing and taking photos =). When i study and do my work..hm, i like it, science is fun. But when i take a break and do something arty i find myself realising how much i miss it...So i think to myself, is this what i want to do? But then again, i do it anyway? As in...i know that whatever path i take in life, music and art will always be with me. I can't make up my mind =(.

Wow i've already typed a lot XD. Well i can tell you the rest of it on another post =P. Sleep time for me!

Ahahaha i named the title mid sems but i didn't actually end up talking about it.

my new case!

i just bought a new hard drive...and it looked so pretty and new that i made a new case for it XD.
here it is!!!
isn't it beautiful? =D
i wish i had thicker white thread though...and a working sewing machine XD

song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have a friend named josh! he's really nice!
today he played the song i requested!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111111111